Love & Reveries

2010-04-23T14:01:00.002+08:00

I'm 18.
I'm an adult.

You're older, you should know better.

YOU. ARE. AN. ADULT.

So grow up.

2010-04-22T01:10:00.002+08:00

Hypocrisy.

2010-04-22T01:05:00.001+08:00

15 April 10

On Thursday, I went out with Nina and Judith after work. It was an awesome night. Went Marina, thought of going bowling but there was some company's event going on, so we decided to go to the arcade instead. It was like my 3rd time in my life going to an arcade. And tried the claw machine for the first time too. A 5 dollar Hello Kitty. HAHHAHA WTF.

The merlions are too cute. Logo voting for Google's, from various schools and age groups.

Fun and bimbotic day!

Friday April 21
Half day at work. Back to school. Lovely to see my classmates again. After not seeing them for ages! I was sooooooooooooooo excited back to school. And yes, our class is really loud hahaha.
Dinner at Marina with 2 S.Freakz and 2 WB. HAHHAHA. <333 FIRST TIME GOING OUT WITH GERALD. WTF. I think we are the only 2 very close friends in the world, that, before this, has never ever ever went out with each other before. Danny couldn't come last minute, unfortunately. It was more than awesome meeting up with them.

Laughter is really the best medicine. I love the company.

Expect me to be blogging more like this. I am stressed I am tired I have my hands full. I don't even have time to clip my nails. Bye.

2010-04-21T10:52:00.002+08:00

& now I can't focus on my work.

2010-04-20T12:33:00.001+08:00

I WANNA SEE THE YEAR ONES!!! =((

2010-04-19T01:26:00.001+08:00

2010-04-17T10:11:00.002+08:00

I got this from Nat's. HAHAHAHA. (Y)

2010-04-16T10:06:00.000+08:00

If you don't tell me, don't expect me to know, and don't expect me to bother.

2010-04-15T09:49:00.002+08:00

I am trying to see if I can not repeat clothes for another two weeks.

2010-04-14T10:34:00.001+08:00

My shoulders are bloody aching. :(

2010-04-14T01:13:00.001+08:00

Nor Aiman says:
hi
hi

Me:
halloooooooooooooooo
sorry love was bathingggggggggg

Nor Aiman says:
hi
boleh berkenalan?
(Can I get to know you?)

Me:
cannot

Nor Aiman says:
asal?
sombong
name siape?
(why? action. what's your name?)

Me:
leha
(kampong name)

Nor Aiman says:
name i boi bonch
(my name is bonch)

Me:
style name

Nor Aiman says:
short for bonchet
tapi i tak bonchet sangat la
(short for fat. but i'm not so fat la)

u dah makan?
(have you eaten?)

Me:
dah
semalam malam
(yes. last night)

Nor Aiman says:
oh
skola mane?
(which school are you from?)

Me:
tairu secondary
(yogurt secondary.)

Nor Aiman says:
dah ade boi?
(Do you have a boyfriend?)

....

-___-

And then a split second after he asked me that, he called me, giggled to himself, and hung up.

......
..........

-______________________-"

2010-04-14T00:13:00.002+08:00

Bebito you are missed :(

Along with my friends. You know who you guys are. :((

2010-04-12T00:34:00.001+08:00

Too close for comfort.

2010-04-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

Hello I am Hazwani and I am more awesome than Danial. Bye.

2010-04-11T19:26:00.000+08:00

Hello. I am Danial and I am awesome.

2010-04-09T10:42:00.000+08:00

lovegivesmehope:

A boy came up to me and gave me a teddy bear when I was six on valentines day.

I laughed and said “Why don’t you give it to me in ten years.” He said “It’s okay, I can wait.”

10 years passed, and I received the same teddy bear with a note saying “I waited for ten years, and I still love you.”

His dedication GMH.

Awww.

2010-04-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

Work today was bearable. Maybe it's because I know what I wanna do so the execution was less dreary. I will be doing brochure tmr though, so yes, tmr is going to be a super long day again. =(

My company's not really developed, so there is not a need for me to do up a thousand sketches before executing (I mean, it's not their requirement lah, but I do for my own process), like the rest of my classmates, where the whole process is just like how NYP taught us.

There's only one other intern, Nina, (designer) there and one freelance that come and go, so yes, when Nina leaves, I'll be there alone =( And Nina is a mixture of Ama (the way she speaks, her skinniness), and LR (top scorer, award winner, illustrations, eating habits).

My mum's getting fond of Chumi and Chiki. So much for disapproval of pets in the house.

2010-04-06T20:38:00.001+08:00

Desperate, desperate

You're reaching out

And no one hears you cry

You're freaking out again

'Cause all your fears

Remind you another dream has come undone

You feel so small and lost like you're the only one

You wanna scream 'cause you're

Desperate

You want somebody, just anybody

To lay their hands on your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believin'

That someday you're gonna see the light

You're in the dark

There's no one left to call

And sleep's your only friend

but even sleep

Can't hide you from all those tears

And all the pain and all the days

You wasted pushin' them away

It's your life, it's time you face it

You want somebody, just anybody

To lay their hands to your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believin'

That someday you're gonna see the light

'Cause you're desperate; desperate

'Cause you're desperate; and now

You know that things have gotta change

You can't go back you'll find your way

And day by day

You start to come alive

You want somebody, just anybody

To bring some peace on your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believin'

That someday you're gonna see the light

You want somebody, just anybody

To lay their hands on your soul tonight

You want a reason to keep believin'

That someday you're gonna see the light

'Cause you're desperate, desperate

'Cause you're desperate, tonight

Oh desperate, so desperate

Tonight, tonight

Desperate, desperate

2010-04-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

WORK SUCKS.

LR, remember how we used to complain to other so much about how school is sooo sian. Well I take that back. It's only the 1st day but it is even more sian than school. I seriously miss school and my friends. Me and Hazwan were complaining to each other via text messages throughout the day and he whined to me over the phone after we got our freedom, WHEN HE WAS THE WHO WAS SO EXITED ABOUT GOING TO WORK IN THE FIRST PLACE.

I don't know how I am going to survive 12 weeks.

2010-04-04T07:46:00.039+08:00

Good morning world. I woke up to such a nice weather to sleep in, but Chumi & Chiki are too cute so I decided to watch them run around their little playground instead, being so carefree, as a constant nagging apprehension feeds on my mind.

I AM GOING TO WORK TMR, FOR 3 FREAKING MONTHS!!!!!

I am sad. Yes, I am definitely sad. Because I will definitely miss my friends back in school and I'll miss having my sweetheart by my side. And scared. Because there will no one working with me and to help me out and to reassure me that everything is going to be okay. There'll be no Nats to tell me, "Haiya! Nice what!", LRs to tell me, "I think the colour is too ugly. Change it to a tint lighter.". No Amas to tell me, "Try moving the text here and the picture there," KMs to tell me, "I prefer this one. The other one seems a bit awkward somehow. But that's what I feel only lah..". No Faiz's jokes to lighten the situation, no Wans to call me sundal and hurl fifty thousands insults at my face.

No Nor Aiman B Abd R by my side.

:(((

2010-04-03T10:07:00.000+08:00

Natalie showed this to me!

50+ Things Girls Wish Guys Knew

1. When we’re watching our favorite show, don’t try to distract us, make fun of the show, or make fun of how much we like the show. We probably know its lame, but we still watch. You have sports; we have our shows.

2. We like when you cook for us, it doesn’t have to be anything fancy, just food we aren’t picky it’s the thought that counts. If you absolutely can’t cook at all, get take out and set it up somewhat nicely.

3. Go to the gym…those pelvic muscles are insanely hot! The beer belly is not!

4. Don’t compare us to your ex-girlfriends; we aren’t them.

5. Open doors for us, we like our men to be gentlemen, bring chivalry back!

6. Just because we don't say thank you every time you do something, doesn't mean we don’t appreciate every little thing you do. The little things usually mean more than anything else.

7. Flowers don’t make up for mistakes, but we love to get them when we least expect it.

8. We love to take pictures and when we want to take several it’s because we want cute ones of you or us to show off to other people.

9. When we want a girls’ night out, don’t be mad or think we are going out to look for other guys. We need our girls’ night as much as you guys need your guys’ night.

10. You can shoot hoops, score a goal, knock down big fat guys, and hit a little baseball with a stick, so why can't you aim in the toilet and not on it.

11. Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.

12. We don’t shave our legs everyday, get over it.

13. When you kiss us we don't like to feel like we are making out with a dog so don’t slobber on our face.

14. Don’t ever lie to us; we will always find out.

15. Don’t tell us who is hot because we don’t care.

16. We shouldn’t have to plan everything, we like surprises, a little spontaneity goes a long way!

17. We’re not always girly girls; we can like boy stuff too.

18. DO NOT act different or be a jerk around your friends. It will get you in the end... (We remember these types of things)

19. Don't always expect us to call you. The phone works both ways!

20. No matter if we're fat or not, most girls aren't as self-confident as guys! And we need to be complimented as often as possible!

21. Being drunk is not an excuse for ANY of your actions.

22. Do not brag to your friends...unless you want us to discuss with the girls how small your penis is.

23. Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.

24. If you're developing such good finger skills playing video games, you better put them to good use sometimes.

25. Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn't want us to know about is considered cheating.

26. If you refuse to dance, expect us to dance with other guys...and lots of them.

27. We don't always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn't hurt to at least offer every once in a while

28. Foreplay isn't something we should have to ask for...it's a prerequisite

29. No girl just wants to be your "friend with benefits."

30. We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends

31. Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference

32. Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you

33. Just because we're still just "hanging out" doesn't make it ok to sleep with your ex-girlfriend

34. We aren’t asking for you to spill your heart, but some information about what’s going on in that head of yours, is nice every once in a while.

35. Don't complain on how long it takes us to get ready and then moan about how we always used to get dolled up for you and now we don’t anymore.

36. No backseat drivers, none!

37. If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed...especially if it's a stick.

38. The ability to play the guitar will help your COGL.

39. Return favors: we massage, you massage; we go down, you go down; we shave, you shave (and not just your face).

40. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes . . . NEVER whitey-tighties, NEVER!

41. Sensitive guys are great . . . but crying more than we do in a movie just isn't right.

42. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to . . . YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG

43. Your way is not always the right way. Learn to say- "I was wrong"

44. If we can't talk to you during a football game, then don't try to get our attention during Grey's Anatomy

45. We have other friends of the male gender. Just because we have guy friends doesn't mean we are sleeping with them or think they are attractive,sometimes it's nice to have a guys perspective on things! So leave your jealousy at the door!

46. Remember actions speak louder than words.

47. Unless you’re Dale Earnhardt Jr., we’re just as capable to drive as you are.

48. We don’t mind being DD (designated driver) as long as you’re not the DD (designated drunk) every night of the week, and you occasionally return the favor.

49. Patience is a virtue; we know what we’re doing.

50. Despite the fact that most of you will get mad and completely ignore what we're trying to tell you on this list, we'll still love you anyways. Probably not as much, but we gotta keep the species going right?

51. Don't act hard around your friends because I won't make you hard tonight.

52. "Wife Beaters" are not an adequate form of fashion.

53. If we wanted to be on video tape, we'd be a porn star not your girlfriend.

54. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays

55. Don't say you love me if you don't mean it.

56. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don't expect us to dress like Victoria Secret models.

57. Just because you L the C doesn't mean we have to S the D.

58. We never have to wonder if your orgasm was real.

59. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? We didn't think so.

60. When you see a girl with huge knockers, do not go "Damn!" and then laugh appreciatively to yourself - we can hear you.

61. When the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my best friends know everything about you.

62. Guys in uniform are hot, no lie, sometimes almost better than when you take them off.

63. When we are through, dont pretend like its okay to call whenever you want and make everything seem fine, especially if you caused the relationship to end. And, dont tell us about your other girlfriends or girls you met because if your trying to make us jealous, ur a lowlife.

64. If we say no once, we mean it, don't ask again and again. No means NO!

2010-04-03T09:56:00.001+08:00

Holidays are too short. Time spent with my darling NOR AIMAN B ABD R never seemed to be enough. I am going to miss him big time once my attachment starts. ;(( Not to mention the rest of VC0801 too, and yes, BBG that includes you. ;( Thanks for all the encouragement you've given me! <33

I don't know how I can survive not seeing Nat Lr Faiz Ib KM Ama in 6 months, all those missing laughter that never fail to make me day, and I'll definitely die without my darling NOR AIMAN B ABD R, and I am definitely going to miss him not being by my side and irritating my life out of me. ;((

And yes BBG I don't know why we are replying on our blogs when we can just text each other AHHAHAHA. We are too cute, yes we are. ;))

2010-04-02T09:16:00.003+08:00

MY temperature is 39.6 degrees Celcius and I am afraid that I wont recover in time for my attachment. =(
I am nearly dying here.

On a side note, I got two hamsters! :)) The ones I gave to Aiman because he wanted to exchange those two with another two brown ones.

2010-03-31T20:24:00.001+08:00

NATALIE, AIMAN BULLIED ME TODAY ;((((

HE POURED OINTMENT ON ME SO I WOULD STINK. HMPH HMPH. COME HUG ME SO I WOULD CHEER UP. ;(((

AND MANY MANY OTHER THINGS THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START.

;(((((

And yes, I will miss you plentyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! I am not gonna see you in a few months =((

And I am not losing weight lah! And how come GLG said I lost weight, he reads my blog or what ah?

2010-03-30T22:26:00.008+08:00

Double date with Yana and Fadhuli today.

Bowling, dinner @ pizza hut - 40 pieces chicken and 2 slices of pizzas, and then Starbucks to chill and relax our stomach.

Pictures are not in order. I am lazy.

And I think Fadhuli has a crush on Aiman.

2010-03-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

Don't dwell on things that brings out any smallest form of negativity in you. It will pull you back.

2010-03-28T14:25:00.015+08:00

Celebration with family. Birthday song. Aiman's cake cutting skills = fail. Exchange gifts. Visit father. Simei for lunch and his haircut. Whitesands to find my mum. His first photo with her together. Fish spa. Cute reaction and laughter from baby. Dinner. Visited grandmother. Home. Collected my hamsters at Nat. Surprised him with it. Another surprise below the block with Hus, M and Syaiful. Caked. Cleaned up and cabbed home with Syaiful. Aiman overnighted. Yes, overnighted. That makes him the first. A male, no less. And my mum didn't say anything about it.

Baby's birthday was yesterday. I hope he enjoyed himself. Happy birthday sweetheart.

Mum wasn't there cuz she had to go off early.

Cute cutting. Earthquake on a cake.

Brought him to his first trip to a fish spa.

Pictures and videos of night surprise are with Nat, I hope she sends me soonish <3

Thank you M Hus and Syaiful for coming down that night, and sorry because I keep changing locations HAHAHA.

Among other things, thank you BBG for everything! And I am sorry you got into trouble with your father and GLG, after all that you've done for me ;(

Above all, I hoped you enjoyed your 20th, sweetheart. I love you :D

2010-03-24T09:14:00.001+08:00

Women bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideas.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say and everything to give.

HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

2010-03-24T03:26:00.004+08:00

Only at the precipice do we evolve

2010-03-23T23:36:00.029+08:00

truth - lies - tears - trust - loyalty - seduction - hurt - love - commitment - fear - gratefulness - acceptance - betrayal - hatred - boundaries - freedom - passion - intimacy - obsession - ignorance - assumptions - jealousy - friendship - angst - influence - relationship - necessity - faith - pride - deception - sacrifice - identity - death.

2010-03-22T10:36:00.002+08:00

Saying I love you

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy it would be to show me how you feel

More than words is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands and touch me

Hold me close don't ever let me go

More than words is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

Cos I'd already know

2010-03-22T10:26:00.001+08:00

I hate it when people assume. Assumptions create messy misunderstandings, and blow up things that are not even there in the first place. The more you assume, the more you doubt. It might do irrepairable damage, if it doesn't stop.

2010-03-21T10:49:00.002+08:00

K yesterday was a much needed day. I had some girl time with Nat and then later with my primary school girl friends Sharifah & Atika. I cancelled my plans with Aiman to clean my father's house so that I can meet up with Nat. I don't cancel plans I've made primarily, but since she's going to start working on Monday onwards, we won't have any time to hang out when that happens. So when in the morning she texted me saying she is lazy to go out, I nearly wanted strangle her hahahaha. But we met up in the end to town and she didn't regret getting out of bed after all! Hahahaha.

She bought a wig!!!

Hehehe. Nice right!!

So yes, quality time with her was awesome, and YES we don't need all these grossness in our lives! Hahhaha!!! ;D

Oh, and "I am not a guy, I don't make empty promises" made me laugh out loud. Hahaaha! Tell your Baby Fir I loved that comment.

Met up in the evening with Sharifah and Atika after not seeing them for one year plus. It's a wonder how we don't keep in touch yet we are still in contact with each other and how our friendship is still here as strong as ever. I guess if the relationship is real, it doesn't matter whether you guys keep in contact often or not because your bond will never break. 10 years of friendship and still counting. <3

We had loooooots of catching up to do, and lots of secrets were revealed. Shocking ones, upsetting ones, but whatever it is, it is always a strength of faith in Allah & Alhamdulillah they are now okay. Whatever secrets that were revealed in Simpang, stays there. ;)

I am seriosuly blessed to have wonderful people in my life that I can always count on. People that I know will always have my back. If you are my friend, yes, you are one of them wonderful people. <33

And I wanna tell the whole world that I love this guy like crazy.

:D :D

2010-03-21T09:33:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS BBG THIS IS FOR YOU READ THIS.

POSSESSIVE AND OVERBEARING MEN

Is a domineering boyfriend good for you?

If you were to pick the biggest problem that plagues the dating world you would be sure to pick jealousy and domineering men. Men with low self esteem and confidence in their abilities tend to do that. They want a woman of their own to love and cherish. Once they have found just the right woman they are scared that she will become someone else’s and try everything to keep them like a horse with blinkers. This syndrome has become quite common with more and more men developing a low self esteem for various reasons.

A woman must develop a sixth sense to be able to spot men like these a mile away. The man may look gorgeous and be a real smooth talker but deep within his feet might be made of clay. The moment you spot him you will think that he is the man of your dreams until he starts trying to gain control over you and your life. The moment you spot the first instances of this kind you can drop him like a hot potato. The moment you are aware of what to spot it will be mighty easy for you.

The first instance is an important one. The man might show symptoms such as wanting to pick you up and waiting in the car until you come out. You might think what is wrong with that unless you have this feeling that your man is waiting outside for you in order to ensure that you cannot go out for a drink after work with anybody else. In case the woman wanted to go somewhere then she must inform the man. Gosh! Sounds like being a dog on a leash.

This is becoming a phenomenal problem. The major problem out here is that the deep rooted low self esteem makes the man do these funny things. They think that there is always a man who is better than them out there wanting to snatch their girl away from them. They in turn don’t trust what their women tell them and in fact think that she might be considering escaping from their clutches. This all comes from the feeling that they do not really should have someone so beautiful and good along with them. Self-worth is not one of their plus points.

Now, the man is in dire straits. They already believe that the girl wants to escape from the relationship so, how do they ensure that they stay? They try to increase their dependence on them so that they can’t live without them. They make them so dependent that they will not go anywhere without them. But, the same does not apply to the man. He might want to go out every night of the week with his pals leaving the woman at home. The love must stem for yourself otherwise you will never believe that someone else can love you. The man needs to be assured of his partners love and commitment constantly. The man will want his woman at home all the time as this will ensure that she does not meet anyone else.

As the time goes by the man who loves control will try all kinds of gimmicks to get attention. There will be scenarios created which will leave a bitter taste in your mouth. Your social life will come to an end. Rather than going out and enjoying yourself you will be at home nursing his emotional ego concern. A sense of isolation will be created wherein you will be kept away from all things normal and fun.

Now, the man has accomplished in detaching you from all your other social commitments and friends. He will be really happy about this. He is the only person you trust and that is what he likes. He will be constantly checking behind your back to see if you are thinking of ending the relationship with him. The main problem will be the constant assurance that you need to give him and demonstrate that you certainly love him and no one else. Slowly you will begin to feel claustrophobic in this kind of a relationship and want to do away with it. This is not the way you wanted life to be. You like being well-cared for and cherished but certainly not like this.

A man who is a little bit jealous and shows it can win a woman’s heart. Women like to get this feeling that their men want to protect them from any unwanted attention and want to have them all to themselves. However, when things become farfetched that is when your danger antennae should go up. Women do have this notion that if a man loves them they must show it by being slightly possessive about them. But, this should be in the right measure.

Men are becoming more wanting to control and dominate their women nowadays. This could be because of several factors. Many women are leaving the home front and going out to work. The financial independence that this fetches them is quite different from what men are used. Here they have a greater opportunity to meet more people. This makes the insecurity in their men come to the forefront faster. Men are brought up to firmly believe that they must be the bread earner and the provider for their families and have the upper hand. This is old-fashioned but not many men understand that. They try to balance the old with the changing time and make a mess of it all. Once they have that kind of a mind set and thought process they are not able to overcome that easily.

Men are not comfortable working at home. They think that that is only for women and these results in a lot of hidden emotions. Poor career progression, no financial stability, dominant parents, childhood traumas and turmoil all result in this kind of an action. They must realize that a woman is not a cattle to be owned and something that you imprison is bound to fly away.

On the other hand a man who is confident in his own abilities will not resort to these kind of tactics. He will do everything to keep his girlfriend happy and with him in more positive manner. He will give her all the possible freedom to go out with her friends, to do what she likes doing best so that their time spend together is more valuable to both of them. They know that a relationship is based on sharing and the foundation of it is trust.

Research has gone on to show that women who are extremely successful in their careers and doing well financially have extremely dominating partners waiting for them at home. Men seem to mix up possessiveness with masculine qualities, but this is hardly the case in reality. You can’t have the woman treated as inferior to you so that you can achieve your objective of gaining control over them.

In fact, the world pities jealous men for they come across as real wimps. Any woman out there does not need to bear this domineering behavior. The longer you put up with it the more difficult will it be for you to come out of it. You have a right to get the best out of your life.

Men who look really self assured might not be so from within. Once you read this article and feel hey this is exactly what I have been going through, you need to leave the men pronto. You could get the help of your friends and family as leaving a man so possessed is not going to be easy. Psychological problems are really difficult to deal with. He will do everything to make you remain that could of course include working on your weakness and emotional weak spots.

There have been quite a few women who have been in this kind of a situation and still come out sane. The more women become self-confident it has an opposite action on the men. They tend to lose their self-esteem in the limelight of the woman. Ensure that you do what is right for you. You have only one life to live and you certainly want to make the most of it. You do not need a possessive man to pull the strings for you.

Some danger signs to look out for:

A man who persistently tells you how you should dress
Constantly asking about your whereabouts and who you are going out with
Coming along with you everywhere that you go
Making plans for you or changing the plans you have made all the time
Calling you relentlessly to find out where you are
Not open to communicating things and discussing any concerns across the table
Making you feel like a good for nothing at all points of time
Lack of confidence that is visible and displayed all the time
Overbearing and intimidating at all times
Display of bad temper and losing one’s cool once too often
Unreasonable behavior

SOUNDS FAMILIAR, BBG?

2010-03-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

Had some girl time today, with Bebito and my primary school girlfriends <3

It was great, I needed it.

And by 'today', I meant Saturday.

Will blog about it soonish, I am too busy now. Bye.

2010-03-19T10:00:00.010+08:00

Wow, I don't even have time to blog during my school holidays. Anyway, thank you all who came, KM LR Ama Faiz Aiman Chrissie, to ice skating, all the way to Kallang, especially CHRISSIE! :D :D Because she came even though the other two couldn't! I hope you enjoyed yourself with us!

It was my first time trying ice skating! Teehee. I am happy that I can kinda skate, but slowly. Knowing how to roller blade really helps. I don't know how to go fast like LR and Ama. Those two are damn ass good. I made Ama fell twice (hehe oops sorry!) because I blocked her when we were turning, but we had fun falling anyway.

KM fell lots of times, in the most PAINFUL position ever, but that was because his right blade wasn't straight. LR noticed that after 1 hour of falling, but he didn't change his shoes though. Faiz stopped skating after half an hour because he was scared of falling, no matter how hard Ama tried to extent her utmost professional help to him and no matter how hard KM tried to convinced him to skate.

After that we took a long time deciding where to eat and ate at Marina Square's food court in the end, and then to MUJI where me Ama and Aiman camwhored. (Hehe)

Got toyol want to camwhore with me and Ama also. HAHAHA!

After that we all headed home. Me and Aiman walked to Bugis to pop by J.CO Donuts where Ameera was working. We watched her for some time before she noticed us there HAHAHA.

We chilled a bit before heading home because I needed to get home before my mum does or she'll ground me and won't let me go out anymore.

I love you, til the end of time.

2010-03-18T11:02:00.004+08:00

My bbg said we are too soft.

& KY told me that too.

Meeeeeh. Baa.

Bbg, that just might be our downfall, sooner or later.

BUT IN THE MEAN TIME, YES WE R KOOL. <3

2010-03-18T03:49:00.006+08:00

I love you.

2010-03-18T00:32:00.001+08:00

Natalie says, "Fuck this shit"

HAH. Nat I miss you bbg!

Ice skating today. Will blog about it soonish.

2010-03-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

Beautiful graphics.

2010-03-16T09:58:00.002+08:00

KY says:
?
huh
say what LOL

haz says:
his facebook profile pic
is annoying
LOL

KY says:
LOLO HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
CAN I LIKE
COPY PASTE
ON HIS WALL
PLEASE
LOOOOOOL

haz says:
DONT YOU FREAKING DARE
DONT
YOU FREAKING DAREEE

KY says:
I'LL REALLY
LAUGH
DON'T DARE ME HAHAHAHAH

haz says:
LOL
DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONT MORON

ZZZ.

2010-03-14T23:03:00.001+08:00

Went to the IT Fair today and finally got to see my sweetheart after not seeing him for a few days because he works there. <33 And Rhaimy told him, "It has only been three days!" hahaha.

My sister finally bought a new laptop, a Lenovo. So far so good but touchpad suck balls. I guess I'll have to use mouse if I ever have to use her laptop in case mine breaks down again.

Oh, and many videos of SNSD (Girls' Generation) were everywhere. It was so annoying but Rhaimy was there staring at the screen like no other. -.-

Gerald said it was because majority of the shoppers were males and most males like that so that's a way of advertising for them to look at their appliances.

Seriously, Gerald I think you are the only sane male (who follows K&J-pop).

Oh, and this is what Danial said about camp:

"There is too much testosterone in here. I may forget how a girl sounds like despite talking to you yesterday."

ROFL.

ANYWAY AIMAN RASHID I AM MISSING YOU MORE AND MORE EVERY SECOND OKAY BYE I LOVE YOU! <3

2010-03-14T00:12:00.001+08:00

Bohehe.

2010-03-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

Good morning world!

Hmm I don't know what to type and I don't know what to say. But I just feel like blogging. K, for one, to those who care, my dad is getting better, he had his second operation last two days, to fit in the defilibrator in his chest. Wah can see one big hard lump popping out from underneath his chest sia. And my grandmother is also warded in the same hospital so I keep shuttling back and forth between them both. Anyway my dad probably is oging to be discharged sometime in the incoming week, to St Andrew's (at Simei) so I am not sure how to shuttle back and forth between them when that happens.

The time at the hospital is so mundane, seriously. And one thing I've learnt from observing is that just because someone is a nurse, doesn't mean they care. Just because someone is a nurse, doesn't mean they have a good heart. Just because someone is a doctor, doesn't mean it's because they want to save lives.

I still have lots to do that I haven't done. Cleaning my dad's place is one. I am supposed to get it done before he gets home but I need to be at the hospital the whole day so there really isn't time for me to get it done.

And I think you just wasted 3 minutes of your life reading this.

2010-03-12T00:57:00.005+08:00

Wah fuck everything is so screwed tell me why guys just can't fucking stay faithful to their girlfriends or wives or their significant other.

To you-know-who, I think you are strong. People say I am. But no, I think you are stronger than me and I know everything will work out for you in the end. My head is in such a muddle and I know yours is too. I really envy you for being strong, because I don't know what I'd do if I were in your situation.

But it's okay, because whatever happens to you (AND ME!), we will get by because WE ARE COOL PEOPLE HAHHAHA.

Like what you've told me, I'll shoot it back at you. You know I'll always be here for you, to listen, to hear, to understand, and simply, to be here.

KEEP THE SMILE GOING! ;D

2010-03-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

I have lots of things to say. I have lots of things to let out. But when I try to gather my thoughts together and type it out, I can't seem to make them cohere.

I have been so agitated lately, thinking of stuff when I shouldn't, what with every unpleasant things keep greeting me right smack in the face.

Ah, what the heck.

2010-03-11T23:12:00.001+08:00

K I am going to be busy doing stuffs during the hols so I have no time to work whatsoever, but if anyone has any one-off assignments, do feel free to call me because I am freaking broke.

But first, overdue photos. Not in order.

M'S BIRTHDAY.

TOWN WITH LR AND FAIZ

CHANGI V

K he look damn pervertic.

HUSRIN'S 20 @ SEOUL

Aiman ate and ate and ate.

HUMAIRA'S BDAY

The sisters.

The amount of newspapers Aiman used to wrap. (There's still loads on the floor too)

2010-03-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

Nice voices & harmony.

Nice song.

And ROFL at the guy playing bowling at the back -- kill mood.

2010-03-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

Went to Seoul Garden (much to Aiman's delight, as proven by the amount he ate) to celebrate Husrin's birthday. Lili and Fathanah were supposed to come, and Naim but they couldn't in the end, so it was just me, M, Aiman Hus and KJ.

Syaiful joined us afterwards for bowling, and damn the guys are freaking good. And chey, M improved a lot hehe.

Oh yes I was waiting with Aiman for his bus at my bus stop and I was innocently sitting down when this malay makcik lifted a kinda big rock and threw it towards me. From afar. -______- Luckily it scratched my leg only a little bit.

Once again, happy birthday dude. (:

2010-03-07T22:30:00.002+08:00

Have heart my dear

We're bound to be afraid

Even if it's just for a few days

Making up for all this mess

2010-03-06T23:21:00.001+08:00

Wah wtf.

Seriously.

Nat I love you and thank you. Gerald, you too. Mani, you three.

And to Wan LR Ama and KM. And also Giraffe. For the things I can't mention here. And YOU SHALL NEVER KNOW because NO ONE is going to tell you guys HINT HINT TO A SPECIFIC SOMEONE.

2010-03-06T00:07:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO DANIAL WHO HAD AAABB, VINCENT AAACE, AND BJ:

AAAAA.

WTF.

GG.

Ritz haven't tell me yet what did he get, but obviously, it's another winner. Sharon, too.

Assholes lah so smart for what. Sometimes I wonder why I have smart friends, and I wonder even more on WHY ARE THEY SO FREAKING SMART.

Danny, hmph you don't want to see me. But don't worry you'll do fine. Be safe, miss me and text me! <3

2010-03-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Danny: LOL DID YANA SHOW YOU THE VIDEO

Me: No what video

Danny: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Os1g1ZjcyuA&feature=player_embedded
her future husband

2010-03-01T15:22:00.003+08:00

WHAT

IF'S.

2010-02-28T23:46:00.001+08:00

Danny showed me this:

2010-02-28T21:28:00.001+08:00

Haha I miss this song.

2010-02-28T20:54:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA OMG MANI I MISS YOU TOO.

2010-02-28T15:22:00.005+08:00

When faced with a mountain of tasks, she reposes at the base and whiles the hours away into nothing. She waits until the last moment, recklessly courting failure, reveling in the surge of adrenaline searing her body.

Malcontent, she broods over her dissatisfaction but takes no action to remedy the situation. And for all her proclamations of misanthropy, she surrounds herself with people-- such a social paradox.

When her emotions flare and build to a raging inferno, she represses them. She douses them with the icy water of self-control.

Proof everyone wrong. Including me and yourself.

"Do you think you are what you think you are?"

2010-02-28T15:10:00.004+08:00

I am having a heart to heart talk with my moron after not contacting for a looooong time. And I know he'll be there for me even after not contacting for 20 years. And I know I can talk to him freely and put my entire faith in him because I know he won't tell a soul. And he knows that it's the same for him, too. We are all growing up and having so many complicated problems that sometimes, I wish I was in Sec 2 forever. BUT MY MORON WILL ALWAYS BE MY MORON EVEN IF TIME IS CHANGING. HAHAHAHA.

Him : I always thought that LR was the les.

LOLOLOLOL.

<33

2010-02-27T23:23:00.000+08:00

Teehee. Happy 79 months to go. I love you! :D

2010-02-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

Finally had an outing together with the girls and Danny. The complete 5. Yes, even Fana came. Like, wow right, I know.

We met at Somerset and ate at Pastamania. Just did some catching up and stuff. Saw Amelia with her BlackBlack, Robin (LOL) and Howie. Then left Pastamania to search for a good spot to camwhore and ended up at Somerset 313.

PICTURE SPAM!!!

So anyway, everyone but Danny was shocked to hear that my Dad has been hospitalised. The only people that I told personally was Danny, Nat, LR, KM, Faiz, Aiman and maybe Ib. The rest of you might have found out via Aiman or whoever else, word travels, after all.

So yes, here's a rare treat for you guys. I don't usually let people in my personal life, and I more than often tell them nothing about my life. But I felt like doing this and Danny said I should, so I will, even though I will feel so very exposed.

Yes, my Dad was hospitalised during the last few submission week. It wasn't easy for me, I was already so worried about my work after my laptop deserted me. And then on a Tuesday, my sister called me to tell me that my father's heart literally skipped a beat and they had to use a defillibrator to actually shock him back to life. I was worried sick on the way to the hospital, so much so that yes, I broke down. Aiman was there with me. And when I got to see him, my father could barely speak and he looked so frail and I broke down again. Aiman said I was strong, but I beg to differ. (Pssst, Gerald, thank you <3 )

Only Gerald understands how I love my father so -- it really isn't the same as the love I have for my mum and how you people love your parents.

It wasn't easy at all, trying to focus on your work, keeping your mind clear, trying to think of solutions on how to complete my work. This, I have to thank God that Nat has a desktop, and my mum for letting me stay over at her place. Yes, first time in 19 years that I stayed over at someone else's place, even though it was for work. I am sorry to trouble you, Nat, and thank you. Danny, and Aiman too. I love you peeps. <33

I pulled through anyway, though I did gave up on my work. Especially after I got sick and came down with a fever on the last week of submissions. Yes, I am sad to say this but I was too weary to care. There's no point though, to cry over spilt milk.

So, yes, and BYE!

2010-02-26T14:47:00.001+08:00

Asides from submitting my portfolio, everything is done. I am so going to flunk my Year 2, but at this point of time, I am too tired to care. Sure, when I see my results I will be disappointed. Angry at myself. Pissed for not putting in more effort. Sad, for getting such resuts. But for now, I am just glad everything is done.

I have been overnighting at Nat's house for God knows how many days already. Thank you Nat, you are my saviour. I think I would receive a straight F if not for you. Danny, thank you too, for lending me your laptop. Aiman, thank you for your laptop and most importantly your time, thank you so much for your help and sacrificing your time for me. Also thank you to Lr, Wan, KM and Ama for little gestures that meant a lot to me. And, GERALD GOH KE YONG, my moron, for your concern when I am at my weakest. <33 And I still miss you.

No matter how strong or weak you think you are, without friends to support you, to help you stand on your feet, you would just crumble and wither.

HUSRIN, you still owe me my fan!

2010-02-26T13:45:00.003+08:00

And this is a bit belated, but

HAPPY BIRTHDAY M!

The picture Aiman did for her.

HUSRIN SEXY SIOL.

2010-02-26T11:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN LI RONG!

HAHAHAHA OMIGOODNESS a year old photo that I found in my FRIENDSTER. jokes. But I posted this in my facebook also lah right. Anyway happy 19th. We're so grown up already, time really flies I still remmeber chatting with you on MSN on the first week of school before I even talked to you in person and you were there complaining to me about some stuff, that I see you've managed to put aside since then. :) (You probably wouldn't remember, though)

Thanks for all the help and support you've given me, and you never cease to amaze me with your talent TSK. Stop tanning lah, or more people will keep thinking you are Filipino instead of Chinese! HAHAHA.

Take care, my bitching buddy, and like what Ib said, MAY YOU GROW TALLER THIS YEAR AHAHAHAHA. <33

2010-02-21T14:41:00.000+08:00

She is strong, because she knows what it’s like to be weak. She keeps a guard, because she knows what it’s like to cry herself to sleep.

2010-02-19T03:10:00.002+08:00

I am panicking like nobody's business and I don't think I can keep my end of words to LR about doing a good job for this packaging. ;(

2010-02-18T10:56:00.002+08:00

Nor Aiman Abdul Rashid, I owe you for life, you helped me out a great deal that even a thousand thank you's won't be enough. I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here ~~last night~~, always. I am so thankful and grateful to have you. With me, by my side, as mine. As I watch you sleep, I can't help but to notice how much I love you so. I love you now and forever and will hold you dear, always.

2010-02-15T08:07:00.001+08:00

Oh, yes, kiss and tell, will ya.

2010-02-15T00:37:00.002+08:00

A Coca-Cola vending machine is transformed into a happiness machine delivering "doses" of happiness. Where will happiness strike next?

2010-02-13T13:03:00.001+08:00

Hello it's the weekends and I've been too terribly and horribly busy. Thank goodness that Retail module is finally over, although I think I'd be marked two grades down for late submission. Me and Faiz literally stayed overnight in school, with Aiman to finish that up.

Talking about Aiman, he sacrificed sooooo much of his time helping us out when his studio submission was due the day after and I felt so bad, because he could have done so much of his work if not for us. :'(( So he had to overnight at my place to try and complete his stuff, but he didn't manage to. :((( Sorry love and thank you so much for helping me, I love you.

And to the people who tagged over there, to the left, thank you.

2010-02-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Do you guys know how emtremely exhausting it is to juggle your own expectations, and at the same time trying hard to do your best for your mother who, more often then not, does not understand. How tiresome it is to do your best, both for yourself and your partner, and at the same time juggling your priorities, from personal ones to school work.

And when it all come crashing down on you, you have no choice but to feel so helpless, like a trapped mouse. Helplessly lost like that. And when someone says they believe in you, that you can do it, you start to wonder, can you really?

2010-02-06T14:26:00.003+08:00

Penguin tea bag holder with timer for people who are lazy to dip the tea bag in and out.

2010-02-06T13:04:00.001+08:00

OMG Little Lulu AHAHAHA LOVE LOVE LOVE.

2010-02-05T13:24:00.009+08:00

Did work at LR's again. I really can focus when I'm over at her place and I love it. I didn't complete my part though, because it was late and I had to go off, but thank goodness it's just adding of colour and the conclusion part.

And apparently, once I left, both of us slept instead of doing our work. ZZZ. ;(

I need to rush tea tonight, and info g tmr.

2010-02-03T01:09:00.003+08:00

Do you miss him at the most happy and fulfilling times of your life? Just because you miss him when the world is quiet and you feel alone doesn’t mean you love him. You will miss anyone when you’re lonely. It’s when your life is going great and you still feel that ache in your heart because he isn’t there to see the genuine smile on your face and happiness in your life.

2010-02-01T02:22:00.001+08:00

Illustrator just hanged on me and I cannot remember if I saved my coffee table book. I only have 3 hours to finish up my coffee table book before getting ready to meet LR in school to wrap everything up for the camera packaging.

I have to finish info g. too, but I am sure that I can do this.

And I owe Danny and Aiman for lending me their laptops. If they hadn't, I would have been dead last week.

2010-01-31T03:24:00.002+08:00

Huh.

Guys and their raging hormones.

"Somethimes I think guys should just kill themselves" - Bebito.

2010-01-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life. But I’d rather be your moon, so I can shine on you during your darkest hour when your sun isn’t around.

2010-01-27T23:00:00.001+08:00

Today was an awesome 27th, thanks to sweetie and my ang moh chick Natalie. Business presentation was today and there were many mistakes, from the presenters to the transition of the slides (hehe oops) and the slides itself. But I think all of us are finally glad that this presentation and module is over and done with, especially LR who deserves a huge credit for spending so much of her time putting together the report and everything.

After that, me, Aiman and Natalie went to Toa Payoh because he needed to go TPY Hub to get some documents, and me & Nat needed to go to Popular to get some papers. Ate at Ya Kun Kaya Toast after that and some boys were checking Natalie out chey <3 Too bad, boys, she is an ang moh chick who already has R. ;)

Talking about R, Nat asked Aiman about how we got together, and he was so nervous until his lips and cheeks were twitching all the way and he couldn't even talk and drink his cup of coffee properly. Natalie was smart enough to differentiate the lies that Aiman fed her, thinking that she doesn't have any brains to figure things out.

We went home soon after that. All three of us took the same bus and the confession sharing session continued throughout the bus journey, til me and Aiman missed our stopped and went all the way to Tampines Interchange instead, when the bus goes to my house. Aiman shared the story of him and Nani with Natalie, and Natalie told him about Castillo. Things happen for a reason and I realise I am missing out on so much. Eh, Nat? :))

Aiman came over but left soon after, but not before gazing at the night sky together and then he had his countless waterfall again. ;)

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly

Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause there's nothing about you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way

And I hope you always stay the same
Cause there's nothing about you I would change
No there's nothing about you I would change

:)

I love you.

2010-01-26T07:15:00.001+08:00

I am a coward and I lack the courage.

2010-01-25T14:53:00.000+08:00

Nick, regarding Ama: Whoah, you can be the Makcik selling epok-epok sia! "Eh boy ah boy, what you want!?"

Ama, in a vain attempt to counter back: Eh, boy ah, what's that on your ear ah? (Referring to his earring -__-)

KM to Ama: What's that in your head? Nothing.

2010-01-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

" YES WE CAN YES WE CAN.

WHOEVER THINKS THAT WE ARE LAST MINUTE AND SLACKERS SHOULD SAY

"WOW! UR PACKAGING IS THE COOLEST THING I"VE EVER SEEN!"

AND IN THEIR HEAD, THEY ARE THINKGING " T.T i wanna throw my ugly box away:((("

hahahahahaha "

HAHAHAH <3

2010-01-24T15:59:00.002+08:00

But you always bounce back.

I believe in you.

<3

2010-01-24T01:00:00.002+08:00

I am wasting precious time doing nothing because my laptop display died on me so I can't use it to do my work, and if there's any kind soul with a spare laptop, please be so kind to lend me. :'(

Me and LR did work for 7 hours STRAIGHT today. Too bad it seems like that's the last time I can pull that stunt.

EDIT 5.29 AM//
Okay I cannot install Adobe on my sister's for some reason, I don't know why because I used to be able to. So I spent the whole night doing nothing and I am worried because I know for sure that I cannot finish everything by submission time. I should just die. Seriously.

I still owe LR the report and I realised I didn't back them up. And I owe myself Infog, Retail, Chevady's and Tea by this week.

FUCK.

2010-01-23T12:29:00.000+08:00

I feel so useless useless useless. ;(

AND, I gained back my weight that I've lost, which is a proof of how stressed I am. My weight always skyrocket during submission time, where I just eat and eat junk food like a pig.

I wanna buy a new laptop.

2010-01-22T23:23:00.001+08:00

" and i need to find my groin guard prior to the safety of my men gems which are really vital organ of a human anatomy .... & HOLY MOTHER I NEED TO SHIT. PRONTO.

LOL WTF.

2010-01-21T14:55:00.001+08:00

❤   Sky of Love.              LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. says:
i need to do my coffee table book and print
i need to do my tea box lock, paper pag, and tea bag

dandandandandandandanny says:
teabox?

❤   Sky of Love.              LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. says:
i need to do 3d card

dandandandandandandanny says:
still havent finish?

❤   Sky of Love.              LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. says:
i need to start on infographics a2 poster
i need to do business report
i need to do retail interior, moodboard, concept, render, 2d 3d , mock up
i need to do food packaging
i need to do camera packaging

dandandandandandandanny says:
banyaknye

❤   Sky of Love.              LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. says:
)':

❤   Sky of Love.              LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. says:
i still need to redo some of my previous work for portfolio cuz spoil or missing

LETS ALL CRY AND DIE. Whoever said Visual Comm is slack should kill themselves right now.

2010-01-21T10:36:00.000+08:00

BOHEHEHE HELLO THIS IS NOT HAZ. Kkzzzzzzzzz I give you my details and measurements.

Name: Muhamad Danial

Age: 18

Height: 155 (damn tall right, I know)

Weight: heavy enough

I asked Haz to write a post for my blog some time back (click here) so I'm returning her a favour by posting on her blog too. But I got nothing to blog about leh. Hmmm.

Actually I'm quite sad. LOL. A lot of my friends keep asking who is Haz but why none of you ask about me :{ But nvm I'm a social butterfly and I will pretend that all of you are dying to know me. HEHEHEE.

That's me. Sexy face.

There, a better picture of me.

HAHAH AIYA I don't know how to smile lah. So I have to make stupid faces when I take pictures.

Btw, I still don't have a topic in mind so I'm just going to ramble on and on.

Oh no, wait. Aiman suggested that I blog about what I'm going to do for the next 2 years. NS = 2 years.

So yes, in case you haven't got the hint already, i'm enlisting and going to serve the nation for 2 years BOOHOO. I'm going in on the 4th of March (and A-level results are said to be out on the 5th). So basically I'm going to face my friends without any hair on my head.

Wah I'm getting sleepy already (it's 2.20am).

Go to my blog and look at the latest post if you want to see Haz looking like a goat HAHAHAA. (LOL HAZ I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO TALK ABOUT)

K I will blog more if I can think of any more things but right now I just want to sleep. GOODNIGHT.

2010-01-21T10:31:00.001+08:00

For Aiman :)

I love you. (:

2010-01-19T21:13:00.016+08:00

The wall is there because you want it to be there. It stops you because you want it to. When you're ready, it will fade away. And reveal the dreams beyond.

2010-01-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

I am appalled. I am appalled by the nature of mature adults who should be able to differentiate between what's right and what's wrong, yet lacking the principles, the values of beliefs, ethics and habits that we all hold that make us responsible human beings, and the people around us happier and create a better society.

2010-01-17T17:02:00.001+08:00

I like the band and this song. Cannot meh?

2010-01-17T17:00:00.001+08:00

I need a freaking hard disk ASAP.

2010-01-16T15:39:00.002+08:00

Yay it's the weekends and I managed to catch up on my sleep last night. I am pretty much screwed with school, and I am on the verge of giving up. But I won't run. Mani, you are always my source of motivation and I miss you.

Ironically, despite the paragraph above, if you ask me, "How's life?", I'd reply, "Life is awesome." I look forward to school only because of my awesome classmates who can cheer me up anytime, and also of course my Nor Aiman Abdul Rashid <3. There is only a few weeks of school left so I really need to focus on my work. Just a few more weeks til our journey in Year 2 ends.

Time really passes by so fast, it's almost hard to comprehend.

Seems like it was only yesterday that sat in an unfamiliar room, all quiet and feeling awkward (Of course, with the exception of Natasha Aisyah Sonia and Natalie. I remembered sitting with them and joining their eccenttricity.) And look where we are now. The class is a huge happy family and no doubt they would agree that we have forged an unnaturally strong bond for a class, in just a short period of time.

2010-01-16T15:29:00.003+08:00

I'm dying to catch my breath

Oh why don't I ever learn

I've lost all my trust though I've surely tried to

Turn it around

Can you still see the heart of me?

All my agony fades away

When you hold me in your embrace

Don't tear me down

For all I need

Make my heart a better place

Give me something I can believe

You've opened the door now

Don't let it close

I'm here on the edge again

I wish I could let it go

I know that I'm only one step away

From turning around

I've tried many times but nothing was real

Make it fade away

Don't break me down

I want to believe that this is for real

Save me from my fear

Don't tear me down

Give me something i can believe

Don't tear it down

What's left of me

Make my heart a better place

2010-01-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

Nor Aiman says:

i fell asleep while chewing keropok fishball

❤ Sky of Love. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
LIKE THAT ALSO CAN?!

2010-01-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

Some people just love reiterating the same mistakes over and over again, just to blame everyone else, but themselves.

Sometimes I wonder what you are thinking. Are you even being fair to her. I will never know what you are thinking and I will never know what you are feeling as those thoughts feast on your weakness. But one thing I am sure of though, is that she is gave up everything to be with you. She managed to move on from her screwed up past for you, but can you do the same for her? Are you doing it, do you even want to do it?

Sometimes, I wonder.

2010-01-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse

2010-01-11T01:44:00.004+08:00

I am this close to breaking down.

And I think some of my classmates are, too.

I wish I am stronger. I feel weak and I hate it.

And I am not going to China. And I know I will regret not going.

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Natalie says:
eh hallo boy welcome back! and don't forget my badmonton rackets lah can you please let me burn my fats?
HAHAHA
HAHAHAHA
HAHAHAH
AHAHAHHA HAZ URE TOO FUNNY

❤ Sky of Love. says:
HAHAHA WHAT I DO

Natalie says:
SO DAM FUNNY
I SEE READY LAUGH UNTIL CRY

Well I'm glad I can cheer someone up when they are feeling low.

2010-01-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

Lies. All lies.

But let's just play along, shall we?